Abortion- please help?

Has any one out ther had an abortion? I'm bwt 4weeks preg n considering it, cannot keep my baby for many reasons, but at the same time I fel I cannot abort the baby. If I do go ahead I am considering taking the abortion pill, iv read up on it, it says that the pill can b life threatening, and you could bleed to death, (evn if u hav an early abortion? Around 7-8weeks? Or you could get an infection, if any of youbjave experience abortions, please tell me, was it painfull? N how it went for you. Please. Answers wil b very much appreciated, no stupid answers please as this is a very serious matter. Many thanks to all who respond.